This morning, I woke up and realized that although the past two days I have been going to bed sad or depressed (who can really tell nowadays). However, when I’m awake and going about my day, I feel happy.
When co-workers ask me how I’m doing, I tell them I’m happy. I’m doing great witht this big smile on my face. The best part is that I’m not lying or faking it at all. It’s so natural and real.
So why, have I been going to bed upset, sad or depressed recently? I honestly think is just the reality that I’m facing. Selling my home and really not having the funds to make a huge deposit on an apartment that I know I’ll need because of recent events.
In a weird way, I’m not too bothered by falling asleep the way I have, because to me it makes sense. If I was seriously happy all the time with everything that’s going on, someone should be seriously worried for my safety.
