Inception

I was on the clock working for Dominos Pizza as a delivery driver.

I went on a delivery to a building community neighborhood. I finished the delivery and began to walk back towards my vehicle when a man that had been lingering since my arrival was by the stairs I needed to go down to get to my car.

Even though this nightmare happened in the early hours of this morning I already forgot the triggering portion.

I just remember the man continued to harass me and kept following me no matter where I went. I began to panic. I felt claustrophobic, trapped, unsafe and threaned like that night of January 31, 2019. I called my manager’s cell phone to let her know what was going on and that I needed her to come to my location and get me. I was having a full breakdown in the dream. I don’t know why my mind continued to keep me in the dream. All the while watching and experiencing at the same time the anguish I felt that night.

In the meantime, I just kept walking away from the guy but he continued to harass me nonstop. I was crying hysterically. All the while, pleading to the man to stop and leave me alone. I don’t remember verbatim what I said, except that he didn’t know what I had gone through and so on.

I remember seeing my manager’s boss come to the location with a delivery of his own and then I saw my manager approach me.

That’s all I remember, but nothing will make me forget the emotions I felt in the dream and when I woke up.

Anguish, anxiety and helplessness to name a few.

I laid on the couch and simply hugged my Dachshund (Dash). I held him tight against me. I laid and laid past my alarm. I didn’t want to get up. I didn’t want to move. Frankly, I didn’t want to breathe.

I felt so alone.

Weak 
Miserable  
Lost

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