I look in the mirror I see a body I see a face, I do not recognize. The smile is different The face is different The eyes are different I see a body but no soul I see eyes but no spark I see a face but no glow I see a human but no … Continue reading May 6, 2020
Everyday last week, I would lay down in bed at the end of the day and start thinking, “If I die today...” but I could never finish the sentence. It really just made me feel like I most be the most lonesome person to literately have nothing to apologize, thank, say, feel or think. Since … Continue reading If I Die Today…
A year ago around this time many life changing events happened. My last official day as a Law Enforcement Officer, but more appropriately as a Deputy Sheriff with the authority of the Sheriff’s Office was April 14, 2019, which happened to be a Sunday, which also happened to be my birthday. But before April 14, … Continue reading A year ago…
I lay here with Dash in my arms. Remembering the countless sleepless nights I laid on the couch to sleep because my own bed was no longer comfortable. My own bed was no longer a place I could lay and fall asleep. I was succumbed by terror, fear, anguish, paranoia, hurt, panic and disbelief of … Continue reading Almost two years…
I show up looking for something You engage I was blindsided I became interested but you faded away leaving small glimpses of hope but it happened so fast that I’m ending the sentence before it becomes a compound. -M. M.
Keep to yourself above all else. Harm no one with indirect rage. Remember the good and the bad, because it makes up of who you are. Be yourself. Be true to yourself. But most importantly, love yourself. -M.M.
You do not have to be perfect, strong or independent. You don't have to be liked by your coworkers. Let each scar heal on its own. With time they'll barely be noticeable. Only to be seen and kissed by the one true love. -M.M.
Today, was my first day of a six week course by Sierra DeMulder. If you follow the blog on Instagram you may have seen the post or story about how excited I was specially when I realized she had given me a full scholarship. I am extremely grateful, because in a way I did it … Continue reading EXHALE pt. 1
We live and we learn...sometimes. Sometimes we forget to live and actually enjoy life. Sometimes we deal with loss, mistakes, betrayal, injuries, accidents and so forth and don’t learn a single thing until the fifth or however many times it took to remember to not touch an outlet with wet hands. 🤷🏽♀️ Sometimes we disillusion … Continue reading Forgiveness
I know its been awhile, but it has been a rollercoaster of a week. A few days ago, someone I had considered a really special friend, whom I actually said goodbye to in this blog in January, reached out to me. I couldn't respond with happiness to be quite honest, because I had moved on. … Continue reading Second Chance?