Since the beginning of this relationship, I've felt strength, healing and security within myself. But within this past few weeks, I've felt doubt loom over me. I've felt doubt creep around me. I've felt doubt within me. Although, we both care about a healthy living, there are a few things that separate us, although these … Continue reading Doubt
This weekend was huge. I have officially met all of my boyfriend's direct family members and he is definitely the black sheep, but in a great way. Every time we have a discussion, disagreement or misunderstanding we always come out better. Stronger. What brings me even more happiness is seeing how much I've grown since … Continue reading Happy
We all live in a world were memories are made each and every second we are alive. Some are good. Some are bad. Some are forgotten. Some will live with you for the rest of your life. Some will affect you everyday. Some will affect you sometimes. Some can easily destroy you from within whether … Continue reading Past or History?
Connecting with you has been a blessing in disguise. A year ago, I would have never thought this is where I would be. You've helped me grow as a person (individually and mentally). I feel stronger about myself. I feel stronger about my goals. I couldn't tell you the last time I thought about harming … Continue reading Semicolon (;)
I purposely question and make a point to let others know that it’s okay if they don’t mean or feel a type of way, because it helps me defer the smallest thought or glimpse of hope that someone may actually care about me in any shape or form. It’s called deflecting and it’s my way … Continue reading Am I Selfish?
Some of y’all may know who Jessie Reyes is and some may not. In short, she is of Columbia descent but raised in Canada by her parents who relocated there before she was born. I bring this up because “When Love Came to Kill Us All” is the title of her album, which she released … Continue reading When Love Came to Kill Us All
What if after all the hurt, pain and disillusions, your heart itself isn’t capable of love anymore? Your mind dreams it, thinks of it and desires it, yet the opportunity presents itself and you lack actual attachment. You lack the actual want to succeed with it. Yet, jealousy and bad vibes surround everything that could … Continue reading When You Don’t Believe in Love Anymore
Hey, it’s me. The older you. I want you to know that all that strength, independent mindset you have will take you a long way. You will not have a fairytale story. You will deal with a lot of disillusions, heartbreak, and betrayal by many, especially those you will hold highly and mighty. Take comfort … Continue reading A Letter to my Younger Self
Around this time, two years ago, I received one of the most painful injuries from my then husband. I don’t remember much, but I do remember he was drunk as a skunk. Wait, never-mind. I remember now. He said, he was going to stop drinking (for who knows, the 10th millionth time maybe). I was … Continue reading The Turning Point
Everyday last week, I would lay down in bed at the end of the day and start thinking, “If I die today...” but I could never finish the sentence. It really just made me feel like I most be the most lonesome person to literately have nothing to apologize, thank, say, feel or think. Since … Continue reading If I Die Today…