I still feel it

I feel my heart withering away
with every day that passes

I feel my oxygen level depleting
with every spoken word

I feel myself becoming lost in the past
with every memory

I feel my life fleeting from me 
with every passing moment

I loved you.
So much,

I still feel it;
with every waking moment
with every second
with every thought

But you never loved me
as much

I still feel it;
the betrayal 
the loss
the sadness

I feel myself wanting to love you
with every day that passes

I feel myself longing to you
with every spoken word

I feel myself holding on to those memories
with every thought

I want to hold on to what once was
with every passing moment

I loved you.
So much,
I still feel it.

But you never loved me, 
as much.
I still feel it.

                          -M. M.
                          Aug 2, 2021