Coffin

Just like a fool
I try and try to do things differently
I try and try to start with a clean slate
I try and try to not let the same things get to me
I try and try again

Yet, I'm the one that is always upset
Yet, no matter what I say or do
they never understand
they can't see my point of view
they can't relate

So why do I even bother?
Why try so hard, when obviously I'm the problem
I have to be, right?

But I know I'm not the same person I was with Sylvio
I know I'm not the same person I was with Kalen
I know I'm not the same person I was with Chris
I know I'm not the same person I was with Garrett

I am definitely a completely different person today
I am broken inside out
I struggle with depression, anxiety and panic attacks

Yet, I always prioritze others before me
Yet, I always find time in my busy schedule
Yet, I always feel left out and forgotten

Why get attached when something better comes around I won't even matter.

-M.M.
 9/2/2020