Hopelessness is the worst feeling in the world, honestly. I’ve felt hopeless once before and that was after separating from my ex-husband and drowning in debt, stress, paranoia, hurt, mental and physical exhaustion. When I no longer felt a reason to live. When I felt alone in this huge ass world. When I felt ashamed … Continue reading Hopelessness
So of course today is November 21, but my lovely brain decided to freak out a whole week and now a day before the dreadful day. Tomorrow marks the day of the first and most impactful and traumatizing day that my ex-husband put his hands on me. It all started when we were supposed to … Continue reading Remember Remember the 22nd of November
We all live in a world were memories are made each and every second we are alive. Some are good. Some are bad. Some are forgotten. Some will live with you for the rest of your life. Some will affect you everyday. Some will affect you sometimes. Some can easily destroy you from within whether … Continue reading Past or History?
I never told you about fairytales, because they don’t exist. I never told you about Santa Claus or Los Tres Reyes Mago, because they don’t exist. But what does exist is my love and devotion for you What does exist is heroism and cowardness What does exist is a world full of chaos Love and … Continue reading To My Future Daughter
A year ago around this time many life changing events happened. My last official day as a Law Enforcement Officer, but more appropriately as a Deputy Sheriff with the authority of the Sheriff’s Office was April 14, 2019, which happened to be a Sunday, which also happened to be my birthday. But before April 14, … Continue reading A year ago…
We live and we learn...sometimes. Sometimes we forget to live and actually enjoy life. Sometimes we deal with loss, mistakes, betrayal, injuries, accidents and so forth and don’t learn a single thing until the fifth or however many times it took to remember to not touch an outlet with wet hands. 🤷🏽♀️ Sometimes we disillusion … Continue reading Forgiveness
I lay in bed and after a few minutes, my brain begins to do what it always does... relives everything I’ve been through in a matter of seconds. The people that have came in and out of my life. The people I thought were my friends. The people I thought I loved and loved me. … Continue reading When It Finally Hits How Alone You Are
Today is Monday, January 13, 2020. Last week was rough. My counselor officially declared me depressed, which I accepted with little hope. It’s been a year. I’ve changed a lot, but I don’t feel like I’ve gotten better. My life is just as uncertain and messy as it was without the recent heartbreak emotion. So … Continue reading Sweet and Sour