We all live in a world were memories are made each and every second we are alive. Some are good. Some are bad. Some are forgotten. Some will live with you for the rest of your life. Some will affect you everyday. Some will affect you sometimes. Some can easily destroy you from within whether … Continue reading Past or History?
Tag: mentalhealth
Am I Selfish?
I purposely question and make a point to let others know that it’s okay if they don’t mean or feel a type of way, because it helps me defer the smallest thought or glimpse of hope that someone may actually care about me in any shape or form. It’s called deflecting and it’s my way … Continue reading Am I Selfish?
When Love Came to Kill Us All
Some of y’all may know who Jessie Reyes is and some may not. In short, she is of Columbia descent but raised in Canada by her parents who relocated there before she was born. I bring this up because “When Love Came to Kill Us All” is the title of her album, which she released … Continue reading When Love Came to Kill Us All
When You Don’t Believe in Love Anymore
What if after all the hurt, pain and disillusions, your heart itself isn’t capable of love anymore? Your mind dreams it, thinks of it and desires it, yet the opportunity presents itself and you lack actual attachment. You lack the actual want to succeed with it. Yet, jealousy and bad vibes surround everything that could … Continue reading When You Don’t Believe in Love Anymore
A Letter to my Younger Self
Hey, it’s me. The older you. I want you to know that all that strength, independent mindset you have will take you a long way. You will not have a fairytale story. You will deal with a lot of disillusions, heartbreak, and betrayal by many, especially those you will hold highly and mighty. Take comfort … Continue reading A Letter to my Younger Self
The Turning Point
Around this time, two years ago, I received one of the most painful injuries from my then husband. I don’t remember much, but I do remember he was drunk as a skunk. Wait, never-mind. I remember now. He said, he was going to stop drinking (for who knows, the 10th millionth time maybe). I was … Continue reading The Turning Point
May 6, 2020
I look in the mirror I see a body I see a face, I do not recognize. The smile is different The face is different The eyes are different I see a body but no soul I see eyes but no spark I see a face but no glow I see a human but no … Continue reading May 6, 2020
If I Die Today…
Everyday last week, I would lay down in bed at the end of the day and start thinking, “If I die today...” but I could never finish the sentence. It really just made me feel like I most be the most lonesome person to literately have nothing to apologize, thank, say, feel or think. Since … Continue reading If I Die Today…
A year ago…
A year ago around this time many life changing events happened. My last official day as a Law Enforcement Officer, but more appropriately as a Deputy Sheriff with the authority of the Sheriff’s Office was April 14, 2019, which happened to be a Sunday, which also happened to be my birthday. But before April 14, … Continue reading A year ago…
Almost two years…
I lay here with Dash in my arms. Remembering the countless sleepless nights I laid on the couch to sleep because my own bed was no longer comfortable. My own bed was no longer a place I could lay and fall asleep. I was succumbed by terror, fear, anguish, paranoia, hurt, panic and disbelief of … Continue reading Almost two years…
