I never told you about fairytales, because they don’t exist. I never told you about Santa Claus or Los Tres Reyes Mago, because they don’t exist. But what does exist is my love and devotion for you What does exist is heroism and cowardness What does exist is a world full of chaos Love and … Continue reading To My Future Daughter
Hey, it’s me. The older you. I want you to know that all that strength, independent mindset you have will take you a long way. You will not have a fairytale story. You will deal with a lot of disillusions, heartbreak, and betrayal by many, especially those you will hold highly and mighty. Take comfort … Continue reading A Letter to my Younger Self
Around this time, two years ago, I received one of the most painful injuries from my then husband. I don’t remember much, but I do remember he was drunk as a skunk. Wait, never-mind. I remember now. He said, he was going to stop drinking (for who knows, the 10th millionth time maybe). I was … Continue reading The Turning Point
I look in the mirror I see a body I see a face, I do not recognize. The smile is different The face is different The eyes are different I see a body but no soul I see eyes but no spark I see a face but no glow I see a human but no … Continue reading May 6, 2020
Everyday last week, I would lay down in bed at the end of the day and start thinking, “If I die today...” but I could never finish the sentence. It really just made me feel like I most be the most lonesome person to literately have nothing to apologize, thank, say, feel or think. Since … Continue reading If I Die Today…
A year ago around this time many life changing events happened. My last official day as a Law Enforcement Officer, but more appropriately as a Deputy Sheriff with the authority of the Sheriff’s Office was April 14, 2019, which happened to be a Sunday, which also happened to be my birthday. But before April 14, … Continue reading A year ago…
I lay here with Dash in my arms. Remembering the countless sleepless nights I laid on the couch to sleep because my own bed was no longer comfortable. My own bed was no longer a place I could lay and fall asleep. I was succumbed by terror, fear, anguish, paranoia, hurt, panic and disbelief of … Continue reading Almost two years…
I show up looking for something You engage I was blindsided I became interested but you faded away leaving small glimpses of hope but it happened so fast that I’m ending the sentence before it becomes a compound. -M. M.
You do not have to be perfect, strong or independent. You don't have to be liked by your coworkers. Let each scar heal on its own. With time they'll barely be noticeable. Only to be seen and kissed by the one true love. -M.M.
Today, was my first day of a six week course by Sierra DeMulder. If you follow the blog on Instagram you may have seen the post or story about how excited I was specially when I realized she had given me a full scholarship. I am extremely grateful, because in a way I did it … Continue reading EXHALE pt. 1