I know its been awhile and trust me I think about you all the time. There are some days, I even grab my laptop and get to the website but then I back out. There are some days, I really feel inspired to write to you, but I end up backing out also. Honestly, I … Continue reading I Know Its Been Awhile…
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Relationships…
Relationships...they come and go. Relationships come in many shapes and sizes. Some last an eternity while others diminish in a flash. Some can blindside you. Some can come when you go knocking. Either way, what starts must come to an end. How it ends can be defining. I began an unexpected relationship with someone I … Continue reading Relationships…
Hopelessness
Hopelessness is the worst feeling in the world, honestly. I’ve felt hopeless once before and that was after separating from my ex-husband and drowning in debt, stress, paranoia, hurt, mental and physical exhaustion. When I no longer felt a reason to live. When I felt alone in this huge ass world. When I felt ashamed … Continue reading Hopelessness
Remember Remember the Month of January
Its been two years now and it seems like nothing is different whenever January comes around. This year was slightly different because I've been dealing with a terrible back pain that really started in November and hasn't let up, as well as being in my first relationship since I separated from my ex-husband. That was … Continue reading Remember Remember the Month of January
In the Dirt
What a beautiful feeling it is to think you’ve made it and are leveled with your partner, until you are shown you’re not. What a heart breaking feeling it is to have that glass house shattered by few words said by your partner. Oh what a feeling. I have anger problems from time to time. … Continue reading In the Dirt
Remember Remember the 22nd of November
So of course today is November 21, but my lovely brain decided to freak out a whole week and now a day before the dreadful day. Tomorrow marks the day of the first and most impactful and traumatizing day that my ex-husband put his hands on me. It all started when we were supposed to … Continue reading Remember Remember the 22nd of November
Simple Complicated
I don’t ask for much. I’m simple, complicated. Let me explain. I’m simple to the point that all I ever really want from anything or anyone is time and attention. If we’re hanging out I expect for you to be present, in the moment, paying attention, making memories to remember them, share and revisit at … Continue reading Simple Complicated
Numb
I am faced with the same situation, emotionally. There are so many thoughts running through my head, yet I feel nothing. Yesterday did it for me. I hit the “enough is enough”. I’m over it. I have tried so hard to be open-minded, non judgemental, and understanding, but it seems like that’s no enough. I … Continue reading Numb
I thought…
I thought this time would be different. I thought maybe he would be the one to prove my fears wrong. I thought I could finally enjoy life instead of simply living in it. I thought this time it would be different... but all good things must come to an end, right? My biggest fear after … Continue reading I thought…
Doubt
Since the beginning of this relationship, I've felt strength, healing and security within myself. But within this past few weeks, I've felt doubt loom over me. I've felt doubt creep around me. I've felt doubt within me. Although, we both care about a healthy living, there are a few things that separate us, although these … Continue reading Doubt
