What a beautiful feeling it is to think you’ve made it and are leveled with your partner, until you are shown you’re not. What a heart breaking feeling it is to have that glass house shattered by few words said by your partner. Oh what a feeling. I have anger problems from time to time. … Continue reading In the Dirt
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Remember Remember the 22nd of November
So of course today is November 21, but my lovely brain decided to freak out a whole week and now a day before the dreadful day. Tomorrow marks the day of the first and most impactful and traumatizing day that my ex-husband put his hands on me. It all started when we were supposed to … Continue reading Remember Remember the 22nd of November
Simple Complicated
I don’t ask for much. I’m simple, complicated. Let me explain. I’m simple to the point that all I ever really want from anything or anyone is time and attention. If we’re hanging out I expect for you to be present, in the moment, paying attention, making memories to remember them, share and revisit at … Continue reading Simple Complicated
Numb
I am faced with the same situation, emotionally. There are so many thoughts running through my head, yet I feel nothing. Yesterday did it for me. I hit the “enough is enough”. I’m over it. I have tried so hard to be open-minded, non judgemental, and understanding, but it seems like that’s no enough. I … Continue reading Numb
I thought…
I thought this time would be different. I thought maybe he would be the one to prove my fears wrong. I thought I could finally enjoy life instead of simply living in it. I thought this time it would be different... but all good things must come to an end, right? My biggest fear after … Continue reading I thought…
Doubt
Since the beginning of this relationship, I've felt strength, healing and security within myself. But within this past few weeks, I've felt doubt loom over me. I've felt doubt creep around me. I've felt doubt within me. Although, we both care about a healthy living, there are a few things that separate us, although these … Continue reading Doubt
Happy
This weekend was huge. I have officially met all of my boyfriend's direct family members and he is definitely the black sheep, but in a great way. Every time we have a discussion, disagreement or misunderstanding we always come out better. Stronger. What brings me even more happiness is seeing how much I've grown since … Continue reading Happy
Past or History?
We all live in a world were memories are made each and every second we are alive. Some are good. Some are bad. Some are forgotten. Some will live with you for the rest of your life. Some will affect you everyday. Some will affect you sometimes. Some can easily destroy you from within whether … Continue reading Past or History?
Semicolon (;)
Connecting with you has been a blessing in disguise. A year ago, I would have never thought this is where I would be. You've helped me grow as a person (individually and mentally). I feel stronger about myself. I feel stronger about my goals. I couldn't tell you the last time I thought about harming … Continue reading Semicolon (;)
Am I Selfish?
I purposely question and make a point to let others know that it’s okay if they don’t mean or feel a type of way, because it helps me defer the smallest thought or glimpse of hope that someone may actually care about me in any shape or form. It’s called deflecting and it’s my way … Continue reading Am I Selfish?
