What a beautiful feeling it is to think you’ve made it and are leveled with your partner, until you are shown you’re not. What a heart breaking feeling it is to have that glass house shattered by few words said by your partner. Oh what a feeling. I have anger problems from time to time. … Continue reading In the Dirt
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Remember Remember the 22nd of November
So of course today is November 21, but my lovely brain decided to freak out a whole week and now a day before the dreadful day. Tomorrow marks the day of the first and most impactful and traumatizing day that my ex-husband put his hands on me. It all started when we were supposed to … Continue reading Remember Remember the 22nd of November
Numb
I am faced with the same situation, emotionally. There are so many thoughts running through my head, yet I feel nothing. Yesterday did it for me. I hit the “enough is enough”. I’m over it. I have tried so hard to be open-minded, non judgemental, and understanding, but it seems like that’s no enough. I … Continue reading Numb
Past or History?
We all live in a world were memories are made each and every second we are alive. Some are good. Some are bad. Some are forgotten. Some will live with you for the rest of your life. Some will affect you everyday. Some will affect you sometimes. Some can easily destroy you from within whether … Continue reading Past or History?
Am I Selfish?
I purposely question and make a point to let others know that it’s okay if they don’t mean or feel a type of way, because it helps me defer the smallest thought or glimpse of hope that someone may actually care about me in any shape or form. It’s called deflecting and it’s my way … Continue reading Am I Selfish?
When Love Came to Kill Us All
Some of y’all may know who Jessie Reyes is and some may not. In short, she is of Columbia descent but raised in Canada by her parents who relocated there before she was born. I bring this up because “When Love Came to Kill Us All” is the title of her album, which she released … Continue reading When Love Came to Kill Us All
The Turning Point
Around this time, two years ago, I received one of the most painful injuries from my then husband. I don’t remember much, but I do remember he was drunk as a skunk. Wait, never-mind. I remember now. He said, he was going to stop drinking (for who knows, the 10th millionth time maybe). I was … Continue reading The Turning Point
Realization
I saw a post done by a local artist from Massachusetts on Instagram. It read something like, sometimes I feel small, very small and unimportant. I immediately liked it and shared it on the story, which can be found if you scroll all the way down. But what really stuck with me is the simple … Continue reading Realization
When It Finally Hits How Alone You Are
I lay in bed and after a few minutes, my brain begins to do what it always does... relives everything I’ve been through in a matter of seconds. The people that have came in and out of my life. The people I thought were my friends. The people I thought I loved and loved me. … Continue reading When It Finally Hits How Alone You Are
The Let Down
It’s amazing, how we human beings want nothing more then to be and feel love, trust, respect, support and to simply know we got someone to trust and will have your back no matter what. Yet, after being let down time and time again by family members, friends, boyfriends and husband. You build this wall … Continue reading The Let Down
